There Must be More

Been awhile..The more things change the more they stay the same. Keep thinking about a college biology class on evolution where they postulated that fish evolved legs and lungs so they could get from pond to pond. In an attempt to maintain life in the water they evolved into something more. Where are my legs and lungs? In an ever changing attempt to keep my body moving, I take more or different meds, but my brain isn’t evolving. Shouldn’t the wonderful and mysterious brain take steps to “fix” what is lacking? Why can’t I evolve? I keep hearing and reading about the plasticity of the human body, but I guess there are just some things we can’t physiologically transcend. Something is broke and science cannot yet fix the problem. Which leads me to contemplate the concept of the human spirit.

Now I come from an ardently atheist family and background where science and rationalism is king. Never gave religion or the concept of the human spirit or consciousness much thought. “Religion is the opiate of the masses.” Karl Marks. The idea of putting ones live in the hands of an omnipotent being where ones destiny and path is predetermined never really appealed to me. It took away the responsibility that I could make changes and decisions that could affect my life in a way that was not predestined. I don’t want to get into a whole treatise here, but in short what should be a personal decision has been co-opted and politicized by the religious establishment (for centuries). If I believe in a god, why should I be told how that relationship should be structured. From an anthropological perspective religion was an important social construct as it gave ritual and mores that informed how humans interacted and processed there relationships with each other and the world around them. Now it is used to blow each other up. Whether there is a god or not, an afterlife, a heaven, I cannot say. But what I do know is that there is a fundamental human need to feel like we are part of something bigger than ourselves (or at least I do). There must be something more…

Thus I turn to the human spirit. I cannot and will not endure the suffering of my disease without a purpose. That purpose is to change physiologically what medicine cannot through the belief that the human spirit can transcend the biological destiny of my condition. I am going to evolve! I refuse to stagnate. I do not know how to do it, but neither did the fish billions of years ago. Stay tuned….



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